So I’ve been away for a while, mostly concentrating on my Mom and the surgery she’s had recently to remove a cancerous tumor from her facial nerve (and the nerve itself). I briefly wrote about it before, and a lot has happened since then. I’m still kind of unpacking most of it myself so I won’t really go into details here, but suffice it to say that God really does look after us. He does give us what we need, even if we think we need something else.
I do thank you though for all of your prayers! They definitely worked – it’s still a long journey for her, but we are all so cushioned by the grace that came from your prayers for us. 🙂
During the time of my mom’s surgery (and the many months leading up to it), there was a lot of uncertainty, and a lot of anxiety. She didn’t have health insurance until just about a month before the surgery, so we didn’t know how on earth it would be paid for. She was also unemployed, so we didn’t know what would happen with her in general. Being at home alone without work and having nothing to think about except a major surgery can be pretty overwhelming, to say the least.
And anyone who struggles with anxiety knows just how great a role your thoughts have. Something that seems so small, just a thought, can snowball into a greater fear, and before you know it what started out as a nice day can become a dark hole which you have to fight really hard to get out of.
The Bible mentions a lot about worry, specifically how we shouldn’t do it. If God is in charge of our lives, then we have to trust that He is capable of handling whatever it is the day has planned for us. We have to trust that He is bigger than unemployment or major surgeries or big tests or whatever else it is you’re struggling with.
One interesting passage I never thought to apply to anxiety before is the second reading from a few weeks back, Philippians 4:8: “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.”
It’s perfect, when you think about it. When you start having those anxious thoughts, when you start freaking out, don’t think about more things that’ll freak you out. Don’t heap the worry atop more worry that leads to nothing more than fear. Think about what is true, what is a reality. Think about what is lovely, whatever is pure. Think about those things, because those things will calm you down. Those things will narrow that black tunnel of anxiety and worry and help you see beyond all that you are worried about. Yes, you have a work presentation that a lot is riding on, and you’re anxious about it. But it’s a beautiful morning out there.
The trees are beginning to turn and it’s not going to rain.
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